i want to take you far from the cynics in this town

i no longer really want to get a job over summer or try finding research opportunities. i mostly just wanna sit on my ass all day, play super smash bros, fiddle around with the guitar, and maybe start on my next animation/modeling idea. i don't know what it is, if it's 3rd quarter makeitstop!-ness or just a phase in my usual ups and downs of thingsiwannado, or what. but it's true. i wanna stop time. and just be an obnoxious, lazyass little kid again...minus piano...and workbooks this time.

ohyeah. and i gotta reread harry potter.

reality is though, that i'll probably go around looking for a job or for research, apply, not get accepted, and end up sitting on my ass, playing ssb and guitar...while being scorned at for being so lazy and unmotivated as usual. oh how sweet life is.


on another point, i realize that my blogging has changed somewhat from when i first started. i no longer really feel the need to blog about every single event that has happened to me anymore. which kinda sucks because my memory also sucks and without blogging, everything fades faster in my mind and when people ask "so tell me about school," i say "i don't really remember" because, most likely, i really don't.

maybe blogging's lost its novelty, or i've gotten lazier or don't care anymore. or. perhaps school's just given me enough stuff to worry about and has rendered me too tired to and too disinterested in blogging. i guess i'll just wait for summer to roll around for the moment of truth.


but for now, ima not think about the math midterm earlier today, be grateful that i at least will have a score for the midterm thanks to yin's lucky phone call, try to finish this reading and write-up that's due in a couple hours, continue chem midterm studying, and totally not think about the ps2 that is sitting next to my feet, how amazingly glorious the new super smash bros will be, how the combination of gravity and malfunctioning airplanes can be highly lethal, or food in general.

ohman. this is gonna be hard(z).

you can't swim in a town this shallow

knowing that you'll never be more than the bottom of the above-averages because you're incapable of believing otherwise can be a real downer sometimes.