there's a saltwater film on the jar of your ashes

HOKAY. it has come to my attention that i haven't posted a thing about my life since... before this past quarter had even started so um. i figured it's about time to get my act together and at least attempt a post.

...

whew that was hard. okay. mission complete.





okayokay. i'll try harder. ummm...lemme think.

well, my dad walked in earlier and handed me a chemlab spatula/scooper thing and told me he found it in the washer and i must've forgotten it. muh. i guess i've inadvertently stolen lab equipment from the school. never putting things in my lab coat pocket again -_-

also, i've felt like i've done a whole lot this past quarter at school but if you actually ask me to provide you with details...i find it difficult to do so. it's weird. maybe cause most of it consisted of hanging out, studying, hanging out, lion dancing, hanging out, and uh. hanging out. to think about it...it's kinda hard to describe hanging out. probably why they gave it the name "hanging out."

my friends at school are also slowly fobbitizing me. a little. but i'm going to pretend that i didn't say that just now and that it's not true. um. just, forget you even read that line. o_o

i will not even talk about my classes because that's just too damn depressing to even mention....


blogging is really hard for me now. too uninspired. i feel like i'm forcing myself to write just for the sake of keeping this thing alive. maybe i should just start posting random pics or something...except i'm even too lazy to do that. my sense of interest in anything that involves the creative process has dwindled to almost nothing. weird cause i used to hate that feeling sometimes. when you wanted so much to create something but couldn't get it right. i'd wish that i never had the urge at all. and now that i don't have it anymore, i just feel strangely listless. especially now that there's no school and nothing to work on at all.

wow, srsly. all i've been doing since break started is...playing guitar hero, watching bleach (don't ask >:|), and...prancing around the house in full snowboarding gear. i haven't even been playing my(jeanine's) real guitar. MUH. need....a....project.. i should also get out more and do something physical instead of wasting my body away in the depths of my house.

this post is slowly degenerating so ima just. write out my prelim schedule of winter break.

now-dec 22: uhhh continue loafing around the house, hanging out with op peeps (if they get back in time -_-), meeting up with ucla peeps (all like. 3 of them), honing guitar hero skillz, more prancing in snowboarding gear, etc.

dec 23-28...29?(um. oops i forgot the exact dates again): PARK CITY, UTAH YAYAYAYAYAY. man. the powder's gonna be sweeeeeeet. ima SO pwn the larger trick boxes (or dream about it).

dec 30?-jan3?(wow i really am sketchy about my dates): big bear snowboarding with michelle and co. it's gonna be teh awesomes. snowboarding...with friends? FINALLY! excited XD ...i hope writing this here doesn't jinx it. seems as if every time i write something out in advance, it ends up not happening :(

jan 7: the evil that is school commences yet again. nuuuu *cry*

okie. um, bye.

[edit]
snowboarding in big bear is now set for jan1-4 YEAHH!!