so everybody put your best suit or dress on

just got back to el college and to my pleasant surprise, i'm the first one back. thus i strut around my room in the gloriously sloppy sweatpants i bought from old navy (thanks jade), that my mom fears me of wearing in public.

that last sentence doesn't seem to make sense. but it's okay. i'm still stupid from senior year.

back at school now. i don't feel any different. back home, same thing. now i'm not sure what i'm supposed to be feeling. past weekend was a bunch of reunions, wasting time, procrastinating work, etc. it was good overall i guess. but it's odd cause i couldn't still help to feel that something was just missing. the familiarity is slowly disintegrating and i guess it's just a time when you're inbetween and the word "home" is just starting to become ambiguous.

back "home" you go through the motions, go to the same places just like you always did. same things imprinted into your mind just like you've never left it. but it doesn't feel like anything. it's like you're going around in the past but faded. and the closest thing to the past now are the old smells, sounds, and quite streets that resonate with a distant ring of nostalgia. but still. everyone's on a different track now and that's that.

what the fug did i just say. i dunno. let's just say that maybe i expect too much. and maybe it's a bit unsatisfying. and maybe i'm just a little too impatient. and maybe i'm the type of person that takes time to work things out. and maybe that combination is not so good.

besides that, do not see domino, it is a bad movie. and see babel, it is a good movie. sort of like crash. but don't see it unless you're in the mood for something very intense and heavy. went into it thinking it was another generic action movie suited for 9 bored ucla students...and um yeah. guess i'm not picking the movie next time.

oh. and check out the book masters of deception: escher, dali, and the artists of optical illusion at your local bookstore. coolest fugging book ever. elmer found it in barnes&noble the other night and the rest of us all seriously goggled at it for at least 2 hours. frigging amazing.